Between thinking about this mom thing and staring at my baby bump, I didn’t get much sleep that night. I even called on the spirits for help. The next morning, I awoke feeling confident. Things may not have happened as I planned, but having this baby was a good thing. I always wanted to be married with a child or two, eventually. The middle of my young adult days is a good time to start. I’ll be energized and able to keep up, but not so removed from young life. Hmph. Maybe those spirits really do order my steps. Cheeky plum heads.
Still, I needed time to let this decision sink in and get mentally prepared for how my life was about to change. I called Nay and asked her to meet me at the park. I wanted to be around familiar things like grass, trees, traffic noise and city sights. I needed my girl. She was quiet and distracted, though.
Across the park was a cute area for a wedding. Will me and Winston ever make it there? Will we bounce our child between two houses? I really don’t want that for my baby, but if that’s how it’s going to be… I have nothing to apologize for. I am not to blame. This was an accident waiting to happen. I can only manage how I feel. I can only hope he’ll soon come around.
Anaya was very far away. So far, I couldn’t ignore it anymore. I asked what was wrong. She wants a divorce.
