I hadn’t stopped thinking about Izzy’s question. He seriously sidelined me with that one. Despite my many disappointments, I still want Winston in my life. I don’t see the point of calling it quits. Especially now. I couldn’t do that to Emerald. But I still have much of my life left to live. Do I want to spend it like this?
Instead of letting doubt eat away at my confidence, I turned his question into a quest. I came up with the most perfect plan to squash this issue for good. My pregnancy uncovered so many issues in our relationship, and I’ve never really taken the time to address them. The most glaring is us not knowing each other as well as we should. If we got better acquainted, the other things may take care of themselves. Winston’s birthday is in a few days right before Harvestfest. It’ll be bittersweet because it’s his last birthday and the first one we’ve been able to celebrate. I want it to be special and told Emmy we were surprising him with a family vacation. She was super excited and keeping a secret from him seemed to thrill her. Cheeky little thing.
Without the usual distractions, we will have nothing but time to spend as a family and with each other. If I can come away from this trip with a better understanding of what makes Winston tick and why I love him, I will consider it a success and Izzy will just have to deal with it.
