Today was a first. A first of many firsts, I suppose. I had to leave my child behind as I worked. I did my best to hold off on styling clients and focus on my blog and social media while caring for Emmy, but this one I could not ignore. It’s a wonder I wasn’t late because I just could not make it out the door. At least I didn’t have to take her to daycare or hire some stranger to watch her. Billie agreed to be her official babysitter until she figured out her life and had responsibilities of her own. Can you believe Billie Bean is a YOUNG ADULT already?? Didn’t I just attend her teen birthday like yesterday? I can’t support time flying like this.
Emmy loves Billie. I mean, who wouldn’t? She’s amazing! But, Emmy doesn’t know her like I do, so I was a little concerned this arrangement wouldn’t work. But, so far, so good!
When I finally got out the door, I felt like I left behind half my heart. I stood outside for several minutes debating on whether I should cancel. I hadn’t experienced anguish like that in so long, I forgot I could even be sad. I didn’t cancel. I sucked it up and went on my way. One day really soon, she’ll be the one leaving me every day. I can only hope she misses me as much as she misses her daddy when he’s gone.
