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Winston has been great and seems to be coming around nicely to fatherhood. But I’d be a fool to think he’s magically turned around and doesn’t have any concerns. I have them, so I know he does too. I signed us up for some parenthood classes and a few couples’ counseling sessions. He tried to convince me we didn’t need it, and I appreciated him trying to be brave for me, but I needed them. I’ve never been a mother before. I didn’t plan this. I’m completely unprepared for how my life is about to change. I’ve also never been in a relationship as serious as this. I’m scared. I’ve never been so unconfident in my life. And he’s not here…