Ali and I agreed to see a doctor when he got home from work. All day, I brimmed with excitement and needed to keep my mind occupied lest the anticipation consume me! Late morning, I went to San My to visit my Jang fam. I’m sure they already knew about the baby from Mommy, but I hadn’t visited them since little Dereck was an infant.
Billie had always been close to her mom, but that afternoon she was more attentive than normal. She watched her every move, not like she thought she would fall or anything, but like…like she watched for signs of something preparing to happen. I almost wished I hadn’t noticed that because the thought wouldn’t leave my head. But I suppose the silver lining was when I got that call, maybe it wouldn’t be as jarring. I was so glad I came that day. It could be the last time I saw Aunt Nay.
When I left their apartment, I went to the cemetery. A beautiful, cloudless blue sky greeted me for the first, making my visit even more pleasant. So much had occurred since the last time I visited Daddy. Did he know I was married and expecting? Could he see me? Maybe I should try visiting at night in case he came up from the grave. I would love for him to meet Ali and see that my life was going exactly how I wanted.
Finally, it was almost time for Ali to get off work, so I went home and waited for him. We went to the doctor, and a few hours later we arrived at home with the answer to our burning question. He gazed lovingly at me, and those blue eyes pierced the darkness, showing the joy he could not communicate. I couldn’t speak either. I couldn’t even move. He embraced me, finally, and we cried and had a beautiful, private moment right there on the sidewalk.
