I thought about what Mommy said all night. Her words tore through me like a violent storm. She had always given me brilliant advice, but none so à propos as this. I didn’t realize how comfortable I was in my tiny world. Branching out made me very nervous, and part of me wasn’t ready to let the idea of me and Laurant go, potentially. But honestly, that situation is so stressful. We’re not even together and it stresses me out. I don’t think love is supposed to be that way. It should be easy and beautiful, like my parents’ relationship. I’ll do my best to let it go. And if I can’t, at least I’ll have lived a little.
I made a list of things to do, some I always wanted to do, and some I should do, to get me started on this journey of independence and self-discovery. It was a short list, but hopefully I’ll add things to it as I think of them. The first item was to explore Sulani. I think the reason I feel like a stranger in my hometown is because I don’t know it. I lived in Lani St. Taz and occasionally went to Ohan’ali Town for events. There’s a whole island I’ve never been to, and it’s the most famous one! So, today, I’m going to Mua Pel’am to discover what Sulani is really about. I’m kind of excited and hope to fall in love with the island just like my parents did.
