Jaron came by, and my defenses went up immediately. I’m not a fighter like Mommy, but if there were a moment where I was prepared to test that theory, it’d be that one. Thankfully, he only came to apologize.
He regretted how he acted and wished he could take back what he said. His feelings for me haven’t changed, but as a friend, he wanted better for me. While he would love to be that person, he’d be happy to see me with someone more deserving.
I accepted his apology and got rid of him as fast as I could because the anger bubbled up again. What is it about me that has everyone so up in arms about this? Like they aren’t all doing the same thing! Why is no one protesting about Laurant and Diamond? I woohoo’d with Devante ONE time, and suddenly it’s a matter of national security? I know I’m not cut out for casual woohoo, but why does literally everyone make it their personal business to see to it that I don’t get involved? Am I not allowed to have fun too? I can’t join in the reindeer games? Am I just a porcelain doll destined to spend my life on a shelf for people to look at and say, “oh how pretty?” This is cowplant poop!!
